*Originally published 1/1/2016
Perspective. It is a new year and a new day.
For the past month or so, I let myself get so caught up with how detached I’d been feeling recently, from myself and many of the things that matter most to me- from what gives me a sense of purpose. I got stuck comparing the current “pause” I found myself in, with the vast movement I have made throughout this past year.
But luckily I got some time and space to hear myself think again- to see myself, my life, and my path a little more clearly. And to pull myself out of the victim mentality of “how did my life happen to me like this?”
Life does not happen to you. No matter how passive you may be. Even passivity creates some sort of result. And usually it’s not the result you want to see/feel/experience. So why not be proactive?
Here’s the thing. I think a lot of people avoid what’s in their highest good simply because it’s hard, or challenging. Believe me, I’ve been there. But seriously? What a bogus excuse. Really? It’s hard, so you’re just gonna give up? Or not even try? Daunting as it may be, when you really strive for all that your heart and soul desires, the challenge is an important part of the journey. If it came easy it wouldn’t feel as sweet. Once you go through the challenges you understand why you needed to in order to get to get to where you want to go.
Look at the Wizard of Oz for example. The Cowardly Lion went in search of courage, but in the end it was the challenging journey that brought him many opportunities to demonstrate the courage that already existed within him. And the Tin Man with his heart, the Scarecrow with his brain, Dorothy learning what Home really means.
You don’t become strong by merely picking up a barbell. You have to lift it over and over again. And put it down for a while. Then keep lifting. And keep giving your body a chance to rest in between.
In meditation you don’t just sit on a cushion and achieve inner peace. You don’t just close your eyes and instantly experience presence- and just stay there. It is a practice. Of pulling yourself back into the present moment, over and over and over again.
In order to reach our highest ground, we must demonstrate, in each moment, our ability to climb, even the steepest, most challenging, and sometimes treacherous mountains.
In order to learn, we must pay attention. In order to grow, we must nurture. In order to shine, we must become vulnerable- open ourselves up.
You pickin’ up what I’m puttin’ down here? Our lives and our dreams require action. Loving, kind, patient, dedicated… and compassionate action!
Here’s what my goal is: To continue to work on making myself, my life, and my world more healthy and beautiful every day, to inspire others to do the same, to encourage each person (especially women) to heal themselves, so that they may bring all of their brightest light into the world, and to help guide those towards themselves, when needed (and requested).
I do my work. I share my words. That, simply, is what I am here to do.
Sometimes it is daunting and confusing and challenging and discouraging. But I never give up. I put one foot in front of the other. I keep lifting. I keep breathing. I keep demonstrating courage when I need it the most. I keep listening to my heart when I need guidance. I keep using my mind as wisely as I can. I keep reminding myself that I will never find what I’m truly looking for outside of myself, that all I ever need is already within me. I keep sharing my experiences.
And sometimes I rest.